♥ The Lost Princess.
I never meant to break hearts,
It's not my fault when there's no spark.
Guess I'm numb and dumb enough,
To not reciprocate the feelings they have.
Always getting into relationships,
Without fully knowing each other through friendship.
Though I care for my man,
I always doubt if he's the one.
It's not that I don't get hurt,
My conscience leads me to do something worse.
I don't want to hurt such precious people,
Forgive me if I'm a girl this horrible.
Clueless, senseless and hopeless,
The reason why I seek my friends.
I've tried and tried to smile and laugh,
How come there are no butterflies in my stomach?
Sweet gestures and little things,
I guess I just wanted to be a single Miss.
I'm sorry I never wanted to feel this,
If it's not you, then who's my Prince?
Just wanna share my first poem. 02152010. I made this three years ago during the time when I have been going through a lot of headaches because of love. You saw it right, headaches. Cause I don't even know how a heartache feels. I'm a healthy girl just-so-you-know, I don't have any heart problems. I kept on wondering if the thing that i 'm feeling is already love. Yes I care for him but.. is that love? I was lost back then cause I don't even know what I feel. I can't tell if i'm happy or not and those butterflies didn't even enter my mouth, so how could they get through my stomach? ~.~'
That was when I decided to have the first break up with my first love. We made up and went through many break ups after that cause it's just so frustrating when we fight. We've been together for a year and as I reminisce, I can finally tell that I really love him back then (and maybe for always :/). I waited for him for another year cause I regret letting that precious man go. I got stuck up. I wonder how long will I be like this? I can't seem to let any man enter my heart except for him. That's why I tend to build walls and chains and spikes and anything that can block other people. I didn't even had the chance to prove my love for him. And I guess it's too late. :(
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